Why won't God answer me, What am i doing wrong?

After 10 years of living as a sinner and living a worldly life, I finally was so overcome with guilt and pain that I began turning back to God about a year and a half ago. This has been the hardest year and a half of my life. In this time I have lost my grandfather and my mother. I've been almost broke the whole time because of having to change the way I made money. I just don't understand. What does God want with me. It is like I feel this pull on me and I don't know what to do. My dad is a minister and I've talked to him but he doesn't have the answers I need and to tell you the truth the only relief I have felt was for a little while after reading a book called The Power of Now by an author named Eckhart Tolle which I'm sure my dad would call blasphemy with his southern baptist background. I'm thirty years old and have lived what some would call a wild life, but it's been a year and a half of soul searching and I have nothing. I don't know what to do or where to look anymore. I'm all ears and maybe God wants to talk through you people to me. It's worth a shot.