Wat do yall think? my gusband is in carcrated a yr later i met dis guy he showed me alot of lovin but ?

I am married my husband is in carcrated he has been in prison for 5yrs gots 5more ys to go i hav four kids wth him ive meet dis guy dat ive been wth for 4yrs we only c each other on da weekend cause i wk nites at first he was kool showed me alot of love but dis few months he been tellin me to get a divorce but im confused cause i still love my husband snd him but i guess it more like i feel lonley if u no wat i mean so now i dont no if im makin a wrong choice of not gettin divorce to b wth da boyfreind i feel if i get a divorce im makin da wrong choice cause da boyfreind blames me for everythin and is so controling like he gets mad wen i play around wth my son freinds and gets mad wen my ness comes over for a barbcue and brings her brother in law he accuses me rite away of likein him or sleepin wth him wat crazy is dat i kant even wear botty panties wen he aint here csuse he gets mad i keep goin bak cause he maks me ffeel dat im da bad one like everythin my fault but i dont think it is all csuse at first wen we startd datin i was not showhin him love i mean come on my husband had like a year dat he was in prison so wat do sum one out there am i da one wrong should i kall him bak like i usally do cause im thinl already it not me it him